Nostalgia

Today my kids are going for a month-long vacation in Manila. As i looked at my children in the morning, thoughts of my bachelor days came rushing back and a particular question. Would i have my life any other way?

Would i still be single today if i had not gotten married my wife at the age of 25? Or if i had married later, would have i ended marrying my wife still? Would these wonderful kids be the kids that I would have, had destiny quite made a different turn?

All i can do is smile. In my head, I could think all i want and believe in any possibilities, but i should be thankful for having been gifted with my beautiful kids. Yes, they have grown naughty and fastidious, but they remained consistently thoughtful and loving to me and my wife all these years.

I feel a fleeting emotion of loneliness and nostalgia being separated with them once again for longer than a week. And it is a different feeling when they are the ones leaving you and not the other way around. Leaving them on business trips to different countries is quite a weekly happening for me, but those trips never really produce the same intensity of longing to be with them physically always.



Just like any December that passed in the past few years, this will be another one where i will have to be away from my kids for more than 3 weeks.

On the other hand, it also becomes a time when I am reminded what it feels like if they are not in my life and what it feels like without any purpose.

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Meantime, let me enjoy a family favorite pasttime - dancing on the bed to the tune of Mama Mia's 'Dancing Queen' with my kids - before they fly off to Manila later.